No one ever said it would be easy...

Self control: adjective - restraint exercised over one's own impulses, emotions or desires.

Well...I suck at it, but damn it! I didn't realize how hard keeping self control actually is when you are surrounded by people who don't have the same limitations you do. I don't expect everyone on the planet to adopt a whole foods vegan diet just because I did, nor do I expect anyone to babysit me while I try to work my way through this huge change, but...you know, I'm gonna be honest, I kinda just assumed people would at least try to help me out some by not eating delicious things I can't have in front of my face. You know what they say about when you assume, it makes an ass out of you and me! 

One thing is for sure...I'm not ready to be going out places to eat yet. It's like sending an alcoholic into a raging college party. It's also quite apparent that the modern world is not very vegan friendly, either in terms of cost, availability, etc. It's sad...everywhere you turn, somewhere is pushing you to be healthy and eat the right things, yet it's not cheap to eat healthy. Health isn't as profitable as a bunch of sick people I guess.  

People seem to associate being vegetarian or vegan with being very thin....I've seen a couple people already look at me like I'm some sort of freak because I'm an overweight vegan. Really? God, I know I'm overweight, I'm not happy about it, but maybe embarking on a plant-based diet is one way I'm trying to fix it! Judgmental people really rub me the wrong way. I've been judged all my life...it gets old after a while ya know?? 

This is just one of those days I guess. Tomorrow will be better. A new start. I rather love tomorrow's! 

I guess the biggest thing I need to remember, is that change is not supposed to be easy. It doesn't happen overnight. Every day is one more step towards a better life, I just have to keep fighting the good fight towards a better me!